We all need to get away sometimes. That’s just how humans operate. It may be our inherent need to change our
pace. It may be the nomadic genetics passed
down from our distant ancestors. It may
be a fight or flight response to stressful situations. Whatever it is, sometimes we just need to
go. Away. Far away.
And if you need to get away, Kauai is as good a place as any to escape
to. Hawaii’s garden isle, the north and
west most island, is a beautiful change of scenery and operates at a pace that
is almost alien to those of us from the mainland. If you are going to get away, do it
here.
It seems legit: A
getaway to a tropical paradise. Who doesn’t
want that? I’ve been coming here since I
was seven. Not one time did I leave here
worse off than when I came. That’s a
pretty good run for almost 30 years. Not
that it has always been a fucking carnival on these trips to the South Pacific,
but I’ve never left feeling worse than I did when I showed up. I guess, that’s exactly what I am doing here
now: trying to leave better than I was
when I got here.
This morning, on the way to a hike up to the Wailua River Waterhead,
we were about 20 minutes in to a 40 minute drive. Kathy and I had bantered back and forth about
life and all its shortcomings. We had
laughed about our relationships and family dynamics. Then, at the point that the seven minute
silence entered the conversation, we sat without words for a while. She navigated her Outback over the red clay
and waterlogged fjords as if she had been paid to make Subaru commercials. I daydreamed out the window, watching the
Paper Bark Trees unwind themselves.
Breaking the comfortable silence, I started laughing. I looked at her and said, “In the middle of
all of this, I just thought to myself ‘Don’t forget to go to Costco when you
get home.’” She looked at me with eyes
that said “Really. Costco?” And I said “REALLY??? COSTCO???”
We both laughed. I laughed
because it seemed ridiculous to me that I was in a tropical wilderness with the
only other human being around for miles sitting next to me. She laughed because she knows that you can
remove yourself from your environment, but you can’t remove yourself from
yourself.
That’s an important part of getting away: Understanding your expectations. Knowing that you won’t have to sweep your own
floors or do your own dishes is a reasonable a reasonable expectation. But if you expect that you are going to be
able to get away from yourself, you are hallucinating. And it’s going to be a really bad trip.
So, if you do decide to get away, let me offer a little advice. Go to a place that is quite, but not too
quite. Here, the silence is broken by
the chickens and the sound of the river running over the rocks. When you get away, make sure that you are in
a place where there are dogs barking and kids laughing somewhere in the
distance. Because sitting in silence
only allows your thoughts to scream at you louder.
If you do decide to get away, go to a place where you can be
by yourself, but not be alone. Go to a
place where someone can keep you grounded, but will also share thoughts and
dreams with you. Here, that person is
Kathy. She allows me to spend all the
time I need by myself, but isn’t afraid to interrupt my thoughts or my writing
or my comfort. She knows when it’s time
for coffee or lunch or conversation.
When you get way, make sure that you go somewhere with someone who will
keep you engaged. Because being by
yourself is only healthy if you are not completely alone.
If you do decide that you must get away, got to a place
where you can be absent from your responsibilities, but present with your
feelings. Go to a place that doesn’t
make you forget who you are. Rather, go
to a place that makes you comfortable with them. Here, that place is the Wainiha River. Sitting here is like a daily baptism. Watching the water perpetually move through
the same space every day is a poignant reminder that we should never stagnate. Because, even if we stay in the same place,
we need to move forward.
During the hike back from the Wailua Watherhead, seemingly
out of nowhere, Kathy said to me “I think that a lot of people come to Hawaii
expecting to get away from life. But
there really isn’t enough distraction here to really be able to get away. Unless they know what they are getting way
from.”
-Inner Peas